Another day to remember

   For those who have lost loved ones there are certain days that are harder. For me today is one of them. He would have been 27 years old today and every year I still struggle on his birthday. I have to allow the tears to come and then I need to celebrate the times we had together. I know there are those that expect me to make a big deal of these days but I really feel now that it is a private thing and that I just need the time to grieve to myself. Michael is such a strength for me and knows that I need this time. He is there with a comforting arm and a hug but he knows that I have to work through this. I am very thankful for those that have stood by my side and supported me. I know that Josh will always be with us and that he is watching us from above.

   Three years ago today his family, my mom, Kadence, a few friends and I watched the Oregon Civil War game and thought of Josh on his birthday as he served our country in Afghanistan. That was the last time I was able to wish him a Happy Birthday. A lot has happened, a lot has changed but I am so glad that I have that memory to remember him by. Today most people will go to work, drop kids off at school and run to the grocery store but for a select few of us today is a day that causes hurt and reflection. I know he wants us to continue on and put our best foot forward. And like I said before, there will be tears but then I must laugh because that is what he asked. And what better day is there to follow his request?

   Joshua will always be in our hearts and his memory will forever live on. I am so thankful for his service, his sacrifice, his love. He gave me the greatest gift that is our daughter and I am very thankful for the 23 months that we had as husband and wife. I have been blessed from that time and have learned many lessons. To end I just want to say, Happy Birthday Josh!!!